irritance of life
whining session ahead. don mind me.
how freaking irritating things can be...
1. PW. how freaking irritating it can get. but it isn't the grade that i got that annoys me. it's an average grade after all. i'm fine with it if it's on its own. and i bet at least 50% of the ppl in vj got that grade. wad freaking makes my
BLOOD BOIL is the fact that the ppl in my grp got one grade higher than me. all except me. although the teachers keep emphasizing that the differance in the two grades ain't gonna make much of a diff, but to me it is. it totally makes me wonder wad the hell went wrong with my work. SERIOUSLY??!! SERIOUSLY??!!
it's not like i'm those kind of ppl who whine and whine about not getting the best grade. lik, "ai yah, i miss by one mark to A1." that kinda shit. in fact, i hate those kinda ppl. but it's irritating that after
so much effort, that my expectations are not met. no, i do not believe that my expectations are too high. nor do i regard myself as a perfectionist. i do think so. i expect myself to get wad i deserve to get and wad i think i deserve to get from the fantastic project we've done. but NO. again. lik higher chinese. wad the hell. TOTALLY BLOOD BOILING.SERIOUSLY? SERIOUSLY?2. my brother. he really can't understand the word respect. most of the time he's ok and really funny to be with. but when he starts to do stuff to unreasonable length lik computer every afternoon, study for 1/2 hour only before falling asleep, pon tuition, nv do hw, nv study for his exams and stuff, we have to nag at him. then when we tell him to stop playing his stupid computer games then he starts losing his temper and talking back. his talk is not lik the childish type, it's lik those rude comments that u have nothing to scold back. sometimes it gets really bad that u feel lik hitting him. if he's gd in his studies then nvm, but the thing is he isn't. to a large extent too. and sometimes he doesn't even looks up to my mom. freaking irritating. an older brother would be nice anytime.
that's y i'm really happy when he goes to camp. totally relaxing. shall not be nice here and say that i'll miss him if he's gone for really long. coz i'm totally irritated by him now. yes. let me vent my annoyance: if he can be off to NS for the next 2 yrs, nothing will make me happier. haha! *smirk*
3. JC life. J2 life seriously sucks big time. last time tutorials can be done at the same time when the teacher is going through the same qn/topic. that's a small pt. but the thing is that the speed we're going gotta be faster than light. it's stressful and horrible. sometimes i really feel lik puking at my work load. it's gotta be worst than working. at least when u work, u can get the weekends off. but NO for us. holidays are worse than sch days. my CT told us that she slept from10-6 and earns $6000+ per month. seriously?? when was the last time i slept at 10pm? and she doen't need to bring her work home coz she completes them in sch during breaks. we can only dream of that.
that's y sometimes i'm really thankful that i'm playing soccer. yes, it does takes up time and that's sometimes the reason i don have time to do my work. but in that two three hrs of running and kicking etc. all stress from heaping tutorials and ununderstandable lectures and late nights and early mornings disappear.
helena was saying that she feels tired all the time. me, "yeah, i've been feeling tired since the beginning of this yr" sometimes i really wanna stop time to breathe. and sometimes i really wish i can be at some fantastic beach resort, sipping ice tea and just lying on the beach. waaa...
euphoria. ppl keep saying that time passes too slowly. for me, i can't wait for this yr to pass. not that i wanna grow old quickly, but argh! i hate to feel stressful. i need retail therapy. puma bag - mine.
ok, now on to smaller stuff.
4. my fringe is irritating me. it's lik not long and not short. so i can't pull it behind my ear so it hangs in front of my eye when i'm doing work. so it sorta blocks some of my vision and irritates my eyes. i'm not sure if i wanna cut it coz it'll be hard to keep a short fringe in place when i run. and the season is very very near (gasp!). and i do think i use my hair band too much. long fringe makes ppl look lik a
goon do too. that's what i think. argh.
5. bus rides home. 10min wait + 40 min ride + 10 min walk. waste 1 hr just moving my ass from sch to home. plus i conclude since the beginning of last yr that i have bus sickness. no, i do not puke and go all drowsy but i do feel giddy and, sometimes when i'm really tired, nausea. i got to be happy that at least i don have to take a bus to sch. thanks dad! but the trip home really sucks. i can't wait to get my own car. i don mind the
lao pok pok car that bixia drives. better than nothing, and it gets u around faster.
jolyn was attempting to explain to us about the thoery of relativity and time space relation and how light can actually bend etc. she was saying that time and space is like a stretched horizontal fabric. when a mass is dropped on it (ie. formed) then the fabric will sink down (ie time space disturbance). if the mass is big enough, the mass can distort the fabric so much that it envelopes the mass. this causes the fabric from two diff end to touch each other, ie a time warp will occur. i'm not sure if i'm making sense. but the conclusion is, it's theoretically possible to teleport. now, wouldn't that solve my problem?
woa... pointless entry. but nvm. compliments some points of life that are completely pointless.
